An uphill battle is what I’d call writing. A struggle to keep your feet under you, breathe at the appropriate times and remember to drink water, not flavored by coffee beans and heated to a cozy temp.
In this struggle we grasp at blades of grass, roots, anything to help us claw our way up to the finish line by way of talking to others, posting things on social media, using the internet as a happy distraction, reading article after article and collecting books like “The Complete Idiot’s Guide to Writing a Novel” (Yeah, I totally own that.) They give advice, tips, “rules” on what to do, what not to do, how they’ve perfected their craft, how you can too…even though writing is personal, and there is no golden ticket to the end with fame and fortune.
And as most of those articles about writing help state, it’s important to have a support team to assist in pushing, pulling, shoving, and dragging you up that hill, or simply talk to you smugly from the top until you force yourself to stumble up there just to pummel them. But what the articles don’t tell you, is that even with this lonely business, even with the support team helping you build a solid foundation, sometimes it won’t be enough for your heart.
If you’re writing, if you’re doing what you were born to do, if you are trying every day, even if it’s just to get out of bed, someone, somewhere is proud of you.
I know the struggle, I live it. I stare at that hill—that’s really more of a mountain where the peak is hidden by the clouds—and I’ve felt the hollowness of the realization that even if my support team loves me, and is proud of me, they don’t know how much this endeavor really, truly means to me. Sometimes it feels like they’re not excited enough when I release a book, or don’t understand my wild mood swings when it’s crunch time and I’m a chicken running without a head.
But just remember, you’re not alone. There are people who understand what you’re going through, who are struggling right next to you.
I’ve got two books down and I still absolutely do not have the hang of this…
At least I have thirty-ish more to go to practice on….